Dec 9, 2007

Dirty Little Secrets

I had to walk to the University a few days ago. Seeing all the students running to and fro on the usual path made me remember the times when I used to be one. I felt old and odd. It hasn't even been that long. I used to think with disgust of those melancholic people who thought the same way. I am not going to say: now I understand what they felt. I just refuse to ever feel old. And I won't.

Another thing I remembered was a class I had about 2 years ago. A teacher asked us to think of one dirty little secret that we would never have the courage to admit we have... and just say it there and then. I thought: I don't have dirty little secrets, I'm honest and kind :)

I had to think for a while then I thought of something I do when I am walking alone in the street...
I like to look at people and I imagine them buying and trying on the clothes they are wearing. It's not really a 'dirty' secret to have, but I don't think I would have ever acknowledged I had such thoughts if I didn't have to think about that.
A dirty secret to share would be that I like to analyze the couples I see and imagine them in their intimate moments... That I guess is kind of voyeuristic of me.
Love makes the world go round. :)

Nov 25, 2007

Britney Spears ...Latest

Britney Spears was driving her car when a bunch of paparazzi were taking photos.
She got so angry that she just ran over one of them... nothing serious, just his foot.
Well, the guy didn't sue apparently, but he sold his sock on E-Bay. He got 256 dollars for it.
It reminds me of when Britney's chewed gum was sold for an equally large amount ...
Just gross...

Nov 23, 2007

Ever since my house burnt down, I see the moon more clearly

"I gazed upon all the edens that had fallen in me. I saw edens that I had held in my hands, but let go. I saw promises I did not keep, pains I did not soothe, wounds I did not heal, tears I did not shed. I saw deaths I did not mourn, prayers I did not answer, doors I did not open... doors I did not close, lovers I left behind and dreams I did not live. I saw all that was offered to me that I could not accept. I saw the letters I wished for but never received...
I saw all that could have been, but never will be."



http://www.ashesandsnow.org/

Nov 22, 2007

Songs that make my world go around

I believe this will be a 'more than one episode' blog entry.... :D
I just came across a song I used to be incredibly obsessed by ... if you can ever be obsessed by such a song. "Lose Control" by Missy Elliott. If I remember correctly this was not even a hit in 2005.
I just find it groovy and it makes me vibrate with all my body. It's one of those that makes me move. It's not a masterpiece, I am completely aware of that. Not like Lamb's Gabriel. Or like Matchbox 20's Push. That's why I find it so special. Because it's not. And because of what it does to me.

On the same long forgotten DVD I came across Sisqo - Incomplete (!!) and Usher's BURN.
Hmmmm
Of course I intentionally left out Darren's Insatiable. That falls under a totally different category...
Because after having listened to the song thousands of times and having fantasized about perfect love and a holy communion between lovers... Darren admits it was written for his husband, Richard.
Now, I could start a whole discussion about that... and I will on another occasion. :P

The Backstreet Boys

Just watched the BSB on Jay Leno's Tonight Show. Terrifying experience. Almost like finding out that Santa doesn't exist. Or worse... that he is a just a fat guy who drinks up all the money he should be spending on presents. (Xmas is near, I can be forgiven the lame analogy).
They're not 5 anymore. Kevin left.
They all changed their boyish looks into grown-up, macho appearances. Check out Nick!
But the gestures! The lyrics! The show! Ewwww... Why?

INconsolABLE! From their new album UNbreakABLE. The 'im-', 'in-', 'un-' prefixes and '-able' suffixes were quite fashionable about 4 years ago among song/album titles. Actually it all started with Toni Braxton's Unbreak My Heart in 1996.
Some humble examples:
Irresistible - Jessica Simpson - 2001
Mariah Carey - 2002
Unbreakable - Michael Jackson's Invincible album - 2001. 5IVE had an album with the same name in 1999.
Scorpions - 2004
Westlife - 2002
Alicia Keys (of all the artists!!) 2005 ... Unplugged. I guess this one doesn't count :)
Unpredictable - Jamie Foxx... (again... of all artists!!)

We get it already-you know how to make compound adjectives... Great. It would be wonderful if it brought a plus to your performances...

The lyrics? Well... your usual stuff: she walks away... he's not able to sleep, clocks ticking memories... Can a clock tick memories?
And the chorus is just a masterpiece:

Baby I don't want to waste another day
Keeping it inside it's killing me
'Cause all I ever want, it comes right down to you (to you)
I'm wishing I could find the words to say
Baby I would tell you every time you leave
I'm inconsolable

And, oh the voices! Madonna took up singing lessons after 20 years of being the queen of pop. That's when I started to like her. That's when she became a full artist in my vision. Her singing got a million times better, although I don't think she has a good voice. She knows how to use it and she has the right attitude towards it. It's one thing to have a chihuahua and to train it to kill, and another to have a pit bull and train it to bring you your slippers.
No progress... I feel cheated. I was 13 when they started singing. Now I am almost 26, double that age... but I am being given the same crap.
Pathetic.
Then again... there will always be the 13 yo audience who hasn't heard and seen them like I did half of my life ago. As long as the NUMBER of fans is the same... it doesn't matter that they are not the same individuals.
I hate Hollywood and Broadway... sometimes :P

Nov 21, 2007

No more I love you's

Says Annie Lennox. "No more I love you's The language is leaving me ... No one ever speaks about the monsters". Big, hairy monsters.
Everybody's looking for something.
Friendships are so frail. People are so weak. They stumble on words and small gestures and refuse to communicate.
But then again, who am I to disagree? Wise ol' Annie...
"Some of them want to use you
Some of them want to get used by you
Some of them want to abuse you
Some of them want to be abused"
It's in the water... It's all in the water.

Just let it flow.
Carpe diem.

Nov 20, 2007

If you want the rainbow, you have to put up with the rain.

I have heard that there are hundreds of colors that are invisible to the naked eye.

Just like there are sounds humans can't hear. The weird thing, however, is that there are songs that include sounds like that and devices that produce them. I wondered about the purpose. Apparently, although we can't hear them, they mix with the perceivable sounds... and make up the roundness I was talking about a few days ago.

Could anyone ever tell how many colors and hues there are in a rainbow? I would say at least as many as there are people in the world. Guess that makes us a huge rainbow. When we show ourselves. Because we need to rain to be able to show up. Some of us rain all the time; others shine and show our bright color...
The rain, I believe, is our maturing process, our getting to know each other and ourselves... it's scratching the surface to reveal the glowing color.

And when we rain together, we shine brighter. We need colors in our lives. Others than our own. We need to mingle and mix and interact. Yes, I am talking about relationships. About marriage. About having the power to admit no one person on this planet can make up for the complexities of our own needs.

But there is one person out there who sure makes us shine brighter than all the other 6 billion.
I am happy I have found the color that brightens my light... And although his color may have been imperceivable to others, I am glad his color was visible to my eyes. I guess I was using the right lens.

Nov 17, 2007

My vices

I don't smoke. I don't drink. At least not the point where I could be considered a drinker. I get my kicks from sounds. Words and sounds...
I get high with good music. Higher than any drug could get me. Round sounds that fill my ear with orgasmic delight... my ear drums tingled by a swarm of notes. I decompose each one into small particles and let them flood me. I digest them and make them part of my body.
Just like smoke protrudes through your lungs, invading each corner and floating about. Only, I don't exhale it. I make it part of my flesh. It changes me - it makes me new with each note I hear.

And words...In any form, especially written. Let me see... I think it's called "literature". Words are very powerful tools, but unfortunately most people aren't aware of that. Silence is equally important at the right moment. But words... language... they're a contact key for your brain.

If words are sung... well that's just pure p-l-e-a-s-u-r-e. A quick rush.
My vices... My heavenly vices.

Nov 16, 2007

Some people see things as they are and say 'why'; I dream things that never were and say 'why not'.

I am a happy person, which, I guess, makes me a bad writer. Because happiness doesn't sell. It doesn't linger in other people's minds. It doesn't make them wonder. "And they lived happily ever after" is really all there is to it. You never go back to think about it. White won the battle with black.
But I do believe in gray. In betweenness makes you ponder things. You start wondering 'what if?'. That's the most important question anyone can produce in life. Because it takes wisdom to get to the point where you utter it and open-mindedness to realize there is no right or wrong answer. There are a million possibilities and it's your choice to make. Add some pink to that gray... mix it with some orange and see what comes of it. Do they all entwine into a new color? Or do they make half a rainbow of distinguishable colors? Add the sound of wind sweeping dead leaves in the park. And the squeak of a wooden bench when an old lady sits down. If an old man sits down next to her... that's a story, that's music.

I started this blog because a good friend advised me to do it. I am hoping to find answers to questions I have yet to ask. I hope to find good music.

Time and Date

Followers

Books ...

  • Paul Auster - The New York Trilogy

Movies I Recommend

  • Love Actually...
  • ASHES AND SNOW
  • Fight Club
  • Finding Nemo